Why me?
was it like in the comic strip Hagar so beautiful in the lightning destroyed his ship? "Why me?" and God's answer: "Why not?"
in the last 3? Weeks ago I had zero time to write really, just enough to recover a little. In recent weeks I've been working 6 days a week and just under 60 hours - can make me so mans. They knew full well that I am net fend for so long is not my assumption is common and I thanks to the strike and minus hours and not too short (33) had found sies probably leave immediately justified 2x push me in places, Ne 12-hour shift -.- has
Aaaaaber tomorrow is New Year's and so therefore the stressful time around justified the overtime. After all, I am present almost to 0 in terms of my hours. What I do think, though ne cheek: But I Christmas and New Year Clock antanze I get from 7-14 for each day again 1h minus Weil is not a full working day. This, however, the days are, where you do not open longer MUST have - at least for Christmas - this is one of non-nor the human kindness that we would get maybe an hour or so ... given nööö non-clear. What I was just riding to go into retail? Yesterday I ham also 2 customer like that addressed by the weak side, I would almost collapsed after the whole day for a long time have believed any of my colleagues, I would be the outlet for everyone's bad mood. Hergott sky, but honestly! And this Gelästere, turns out a little ass to catch the others move here about them - the sick like that! But what I reg for me, max one more week and I'm always in the fish, then I can of what the gossip of women there to be real ass walk by.
Oh, I shall now taken over by the way ^ ^ After I finally secure voluntary -. In addition to the mega overtime - tidy 4h the cooling did so because they think all their shit can be deposited with us because they clean up their non-cooling and that is why the new product has no place, then additionally the place where everyone everything tidy ENVISAGES, and not really all that old sow but more needs to be disposed of itself is exhausting, even brought to Fordermann got me then ne nice cold because of the 4 h in the cooling system was also calculated on the day 5 degrees below normal temperature, that is, -3 degrees, a heavy cold caught have and am still appeared good to work, they could accuse me, at least not poor work ethic anymore.
But when I came home at Christmas I've gehaun first time 2 h on the ear and slept through the more or less Christmas.
was fundamentally I am glad that non-Christian in the time since, it was because I really had no more nerve. At bottom, all I've done the last few weeks to work, sleep, eat and go in the evening before bed ne episode Veronica Mars (^ my new addiction. ^ Or rediscovered) Gugger.
Christa fact is actually in the mental hospital - Crisis Intervention - 10 days acute treatment with 8 days of contact ban them - we say we ham 1x 5 minutes on the phone in time belongs - on 22 isse then came out, wanted to come here - I have aba said the stay should forget, too much effort for n few hours and I wanted to infect non was so cold fat - but would in fact simply packed ego non to see them. I was kind of angry - asked me why net. I think they can go so while I work off your ass and because they are constantly running away from home, especially to Mom and Dad, it could be called today in psychiatry in Bayreuth.
I have for the first time seen again for 3 weeks where they opened me then: you moves out. Is ja nich so than I would have no idea, but I did not see it and now this truth, I felt my life breaks down - again - over me, especially when I have the feeling that the facade is, ne wrecking ball comes and I can start again. How long do I do that still, white I honestly net.
So now can I look for first ne affordable housing can again move out here I would just get the feeling of home - apart from the fact that I'm really not the time or energy for another move NEN. At that time wars okay, because I happened to have the time anyway, but now? I get a day off for NEN move - and in that one day I have it all out to create here, the stall left sparkling clean, create home inspection and all my stuff into the new apartment, there admit to at least as far as the one the most necessary is at hand - boah nee real, why me?
time about my relationship apart is most likely in the ass - As you can follow my net? Yes you, then it'll like me, I'm also the first huh? Chris wants to move out but do indeed non-circuit - a cool or logic? You want to get away because you Dachau is too quiet, too few people, they want to be with people. In NEM dorm or something. Whatever. It is meant here has destroyed them. And once again - it's still only around them. Just as in the last few months, she's always come first and she said, wonder what has been acting in the past to hide their depression - also now I have to laugh really
times it has still admitted that eating disorders and alcohol Technically regard not so special ran like she had always believed - she has vomited more often than they have admitted and drunk she probably has 3 times as she added, which was always a lot.
I mean this with the meal I noticed somehow, I always just thought, I'm spinning, too paranoid, maybe want to see that they are not so well under control as she says - or whatever. But I thought every time I saw the film of oil in the toilet, have noticed that something to eat too quickly was gone mad ne plausible explanation for this come up. I'm so stupid - she has lied to me all the time over and over again - I wonder what grade I really believe her at all can.
Sun and Today, after 2 hours, se da isse moved again - to her cousin. As the now goes - do not know but at least she said she pays the rent as long until I got ne new apartment. Is ever so decent.
Ahja and the drop encouraging ocean (I know this is childish mega Now I am just upset over): But I have zero of it got for Christmas - nada! I give her the 5th Scrubsstaffel that cost me as little as 30 flakes and it gives me net mal ne Map? What the hell? I'm net even a card worth? Really nice ... really. It is recently become increasingly clear simple that I invest in the relationship much more than they do. I told her NEN Advent themselves what filled me in total at least 30 € or additional cost, I bring you more often times a trifle, you have our "anniversaries" However given that net just cheap and it is always something that does not exceed their 10-euro mark . They give me so nen small advent calendar which you can buy at Aldi (I have used no, I'm just the gesture damn one) it was probably even in the non-sense. And now Christmas - nee I'm tired. Why am I always so? I hate the people that sin is disappointing and sooner or later. can I look myself almost when I've got a flat for me in which I hide and keep out the world. No Disappointments, no lies!
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