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Why me?

was it like in the comic strip Hagar so beautiful in the lightning destroyed his ship? "Why me?" and God's answer: "Why not?"

in the last 3? Weeks ago I had zero time to write really, just enough to recover a little. In recent weeks I've been working 6 days a week and just under 60 hours - can make me so mans. They knew full well that I am net fend for so long is not my assumption is common and I thanks to the strike and minus hours and not too short (33) had found sies probably leave immediately justified 2x push me in places, Ne 12-hour shift -.- has

Aaaaaber tomorrow is New Year's and so therefore the stressful time around justified the overtime. After all, I am present almost to 0 in terms of my hours. What I do think, though ne cheek: But I Christmas and New Year Clock antanze I get from 7-14 for each day again 1h minus Weil is not a full working day. This, however, the days are, where you do not open longer MUST have - at least for Christmas - this is one of non-nor the human kindness that we would get maybe an hour or so ... given nööö non-clear. What I was just riding to go into retail? Yesterday I ham also 2 customer like that addressed by the weak side, I would almost collapsed after the whole day for a long time have believed any of my colleagues, I would be the outlet for everyone's bad mood. Hergott sky, but honestly! And this Gelästere, turns out a little ass to catch the others move here about them - the sick like that! But what I reg for me, max one more week and I'm always in the fish, then I can of what the gossip of women there to be real ass walk by.

Oh, I shall now taken over by the way ^ ^ After I finally secure voluntary -. In addition to the mega overtime - tidy 4h the cooling did so because they think all their shit can be deposited with us because they clean up their non-cooling and that is why the new product has no place, then additionally the place where everyone everything tidy ENVISAGES, and not really all that old sow but more needs to be disposed of itself is exhausting, even brought to Fordermann got me then ne nice cold because of the 4 h in the cooling system was also calculated on the day 5 degrees below normal temperature, that is, -3 degrees, a heavy cold caught have and am still appeared good to work, they could accuse me, at least not poor work ethic anymore.

But when I came home at Christmas I've gehaun first time 2 h on the ear and slept through the more or less Christmas.

was fundamentally I am glad that non-Christian in the time since, it was because I really had no more nerve. At bottom, all I've done the last few weeks to work, sleep, eat and go in the evening before bed ne episode Veronica Mars (^ my new addiction. ^ Or rediscovered) Gugger.

Christa fact is actually in the mental hospital - Crisis Intervention - 10 days acute treatment with 8 days of contact ban them - we say we ham 1x 5 minutes on the phone in time belongs - on 22 isse then came out, wanted to come here - I have aba said the stay should forget, too much effort for n few hours and I wanted to infect non was so cold fat - but would in fact simply packed ego non to see them. I was kind of angry - asked me why net. I think they can go so while I work off your ass and because they are constantly running away from home, especially to Mom and Dad, it could be called today in psychiatry in Bayreuth.

I have for the first time seen again for 3 weeks where they opened me then: you moves out. Is ja nich so than I would have no idea, but I did not see it and now this truth, I felt my life breaks down - again - over me, especially when I have the feeling that the facade is, ne wrecking ball comes and I can start again. How long do I do that still, white I honestly net.
So now can I look for first ne affordable housing can again move out here I would just get the feeling of home - apart from the fact that I'm really not the time or energy for another move NEN. At that time wars okay, because I happened to have the time anyway, but now? I get a day off for NEN move - and in that one day I have it all out to create here, the stall left sparkling clean, create home inspection and all my stuff into the new apartment, there admit to at least as far as the one the most necessary is at hand - boah nee real, why me?

time about my relationship apart is most likely in the ass - As you can follow my net? Yes you, then it'll like me, I'm also the first huh? Chris wants to move out but do indeed non-circuit - a cool or logic? You want to get away because you Dachau is too quiet, too few people, they want to be with people. In NEM dorm or something. Whatever. It is meant here has destroyed them. And once again - it's still only around them. Just as in the last few months, she's always come first and she said, wonder what has been acting in the past to hide their depression - also now I have to laugh really

times it has still admitted that eating disorders and alcohol Technically regard not so special ran like she had always believed - she has vomited more often than they have admitted and drunk she probably has 3 times as she added, which was always a lot.
I mean this with the meal I noticed somehow, I always just thought, I'm spinning, too paranoid, maybe want to see that they are not so well under control as she says - or whatever. But I thought every time I saw the film of oil in the toilet, have noticed that something to eat too quickly was gone mad ne plausible explanation for this come up. I'm so stupid - she has lied to me all the time over and over again - I wonder what grade I really believe her at all can.

Sun and Today, after 2 hours, se da isse moved again - to her cousin. As the now goes - do not know but at least she said she pays the rent as long until I got ne new apartment. Is ever so decent.

Ahja and the drop encouraging ocean (I know this is childish mega Now I am just upset over): But I have zero of it got for Christmas - nada! I give her the 5th Scrubsstaffel that cost me as little as 30 flakes and it gives me net mal ne Map? What the hell? I'm net even a card worth? Really nice ... really. It is recently become increasingly clear simple that I invest in the relationship much more than they do. I told her NEN Advent themselves what filled me in total at least 30 € or additional cost, I bring you more often times a trifle, you have our "anniversaries" However given that net just cheap and it is always something that does not exceed their 10-euro mark . They give me so nen small advent calendar which you can buy at Aldi (I have used no, I'm just the gesture damn one) it was probably even in the non-sense. And now Christmas - nee I'm tired. Why am I always so? I hate the people that sin is disappointing and sooner or later. can I look myself almost when I've got a flat for me in which I hide and keep out the world. No Disappointments, no lies!

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vs. Oxford. London - Part 1: Oxford

Hello,
I'm sorry that I have not updated for so long, but I was a little busy sometimes (3 other essays on the relationship between sex and murder, why sit in New Zealand so many people in prison and whether Britain needs a constitution).
I also was with Hannah in Oxford - my favorite city in England - and in London. And finally, I'm also a bit frustrated here about the one-sidedness of these communications. I have no idea who all reads and who is actually from the blog know, but from a small comment and would be nice:)
As I said, Oxford.
Why is it my favorite city?
first the city consists of 50% from the different colleges of the University of Oxford (there are 39)

second Oxford is the oldest university in the UK
therefore
see third Most colleges and the like from the Middle Ages and the Tudor period and the rest of the city is not exactly young;)









4th The university is one of the leading academic institutions worldwide
5th They have a beautiful Library (unfortunately I was not there, but for those who have seen the Harry Potter movies: It's the Hogwarts library), which is again one of the largest in the UK.
(left: Radcliffe Camera - a part of the library)












6th this is true (almost) everything on and Cambridge, but Cambridge is a few years younger and dad is there sometimes fallen into the water) There is in places like Oxford: Bodleian Library, Balliol, Brasenose and Oriel College, Carfax Tower and Radcliffe Camera. The names sound like music to my ears. Also called the Thames, where it flows through Oxford, Thames not, but Isis. And the clock 5 minutes walk ahead of Greenwich Mean Time, because Oxford is so special;)
(left: the University Church)















Christchurch College and associated lands (especially important: Rugby field !)















A different side of Oxford ...














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After I was now also in London, I must admit that it is quite difficult to decide which city is better. From today I will again be there for a week (with my parents and the cutter) but I think I must continue to be the most beautiful city of Oxford in England and see London as yourself
soon - hopefully with new pictures from London
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My life is so corrupt, which is already almost back to laugh.

After I fought the last few days more or less with Chris over the phone because I'm just angry easily, she tells me today that she goes into psychiatry for the next 1-2 weeks.

basically sensible but I wonder just what I have kind of a life for a relationship. Why can not happen in my days just what non-ordinary? Why could always be like that?

I am so mad at Chris - so damn angry because they can hang on, always only what is making, when in fact already too late, because they are always escaping in their disease even if only a bit difficult. She grabs the non-university - she feels alone - my face. Am I a bad person, an egoist, when I think that they are not supposed to have? I have most of my teenage years spent alone - and I live too. I'm saying non, that this is a beautiful state - God dunno - but we survived.
And the university - LOL? I work at least 8 hours - the next few weeks, even Ne 60 hour week - and it creates non-university with 30 times the hours? If they can not cut it, how it will ever lead their lives independently?

But I'm kinda glad that they 2 Weeks in psychiatry is - maybe it is because darappelt again (I want to even think about it how long the non-stops again -? 4 weeks 2 months 3 days) then we get something a distance, because right now I really do not know deal with it. I will visit them there? I hope on it so that it is for the duration of your stay ban on visits, then this is not the issue.

I wish myself a normal, boring life!

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Falling apart I can not take it anymore

I can somehow still has not really understand what is happening just now. Although I - again - today was once again dead tired, I was actually pretty good mood, especially after working in the chick from the fish came to me and said, I would be starting in January with her - I say my probationary period and they were probably really take me - I was really relieved.

Sometime in the afternoon I then got a text message received by Christa (she is level in Bayreuth because her father had a blood clot in the brain and therefore mitm emergency doctor had to go to KH, which in itself bad enough is - the fact that the poor Mann has spent the last few years more at the hospital than at home due to cancer, nerve torn vein in the esophagus, etc, much worse) that it is shitty it.

I know I'm selfish man n if I admit that I have read the SMS and will be removed with the thought, "So, as always and I will not now the atmosphere can make it broken. "I do not know if I have Chris in the 7 months one day to be entirely happy or at least not even seen depressed. She is always caught in her thoughts, evaluates all she does and thinks from, makes to doubt himself badly, permanent in itself, always pulls a face like 7 days of rainy weather - I am trying really hard to support them, cheer up, to be there for her to listen to her to take her in his arms, etc, etc.

But there are days when it comes to me just sometimes not so good or I'm just breaks from work - not depressing or anything, just exhausted that I really must work hard in places, the strong play for both of us to fight for them with to support it and often wear a bit.

Then she calls me just now and suddenly I have the feeling that the world is falling over me. She tells her is really bad, her therapist, she on Thursday, before she went home, she really wanted to put for 2 weeks for acute treatment in a psychiatric hospital because it classifies Christa gefärdet as acutely suicidal. Christa says she would have in the past few weeks had never really shown you go (but she has always shown that it is not doing well just obviously not the full extent) and now she tells me all this - on the phone - hundreds of miles away from me and tells me I do not worry! Yeah nee is! I am now, of course, the peace itself, is yes or logical?

I then once again as the first reacts angrily - my first reaction to everything and she said she is glad that she did tell me over the phone and I do not have to sit opposite when I am. Yes thank you. I know myself that I see in a way, but we damn überreagier talking about suicide - the fact that I'm going to sleep all night again because I can almost die in front of concern for them, because me, the words "suicide" "acute" " psychiatry, "now in brain circuits.

I do not like to go from here - I can not more helped to fight for them, I've even really enough to do - the training calls have the strength and time, I have since not enough left her continuing depression mitzutragen, persuade her to always good to see her with this sad face, in their eyes to see that again in their thoughts is captured and tortured by them.

I somehow finds selfish, me all this to say from this distance and I am also selfish, always with sentences like "I'm afraid that you're away when I tell you something." I would certainly not be gone but if it continues like this - if they do finally gets its act together, sometimes more than a few hours where they do not have guggt depressing to himself and everything needs to analyze himself anwertet, takes everything too seriously and themselves so mad and break something - then it makes me so sooner or later broken and just the thought is to put an end because they become almost impossible for me ever again comes with sentences like "If you'd gone, I do not know how to survive."

I could only cry grad - I can no longer so simple. I can not remember me, my life is already too much, I go with her not too clear and I want my life and finally so far get a grip that I once truly consecutive days in which I at least nothing Just got the shit just is, where I can say "The day was okay" without me again in the evening then pulls down. I'm tired - just tired from the disease, the symptoms, problems, analysis of life, the eternal question "why, why," the constant battle with me, illness, my environment. I can nothing around ...

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Too much too fast

Lately I really feel on fast forward live, which is almost eerie - nee really scary.

So this has been resolved with Christa in the meantime there - sometimes I'm really glad nothing around to be in therapy, I can not say where the things that I go against the grain and burden me and I bore a relatively mid communicative person become am (^ ^ at least to my standards.) sooner or later I must also address what's on the soul - as happened regularly and Christa now has promised to go to the AA's.
fascinanting It was when she came home again it was really enormous distance between us had been resolved and as wirs then, it was much closer to me again - as it shows how times can gefärden Dammed a relationship.

My apprenticeship is also currently quite on the edge where he now more towards "Safty" tends - my review was miserable thing I found rather unfair. Some may have been true - as my mood fluctuates, while some also use my work rated but as bad as me - ey nee. I found outrageous. Especially because I get constantly contradictory statements from all sides - but okay, I'm shit but ne rating but isn 'tick with a recommendation to accept "what brings me some ne 90% chance of adoption.
Ma Guggenheim as posed. After all, ham
se me recently for the morning shift alone own shares - means I have to prepare the meat counter alone - the ma n stress. The cut about 10 varieties of raw and cooked ham, fresh cut meats, everything to look fresh again, what you unpack all the evening packed up etc containing pp. Since net and you realize it isses 1 1 / 2 hours later and we do on and you're finished grad times, but somehow found ego cool. Especially on the day only Yvonne was there and then we just threw the bar ham - relaxed with the isses really funny and totally. That makes the real fun.
meantime there is my Sirch even better than the Scharl the * piiiieeeep * has purely came over me in the evaluation that is full - has claimed I would disagree constantly, to accept any assistance when I am told that it will be made either way. Waaaa!

meantime there Habisch even baked cookies scho 3 kinds =) I'm a busy Mädle Hach - Butter cookies in various forms, ie, with jam, with white and Vollmilchschokiüberzug, coconut macaroons selbstkreirte and chocolate cereal chocolate xD Soon I will definitely have mini gingerbread Müslimakronen make and maybe vanilla.

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Ey you think actually where you meet all over the damn eating disorder? Lately I'm really feeling the jump in from each side - we will work inna every 2nd Days ne hardcore Anorex over and hangs like hypnotized in front of the candy that you really get scared if you have to go through in between, you that like the throat and jumps, every 2nd at the counter asked ne "low-fat cheese" LOL ey people, salami without fat is impossible! On the hottest sin, people who buy then Cervelat because you see as the fat chunks - that but that's why more fat than the other varieties of salami resist making I would rather they want to take the illusion even net xD And then I have also 2 women in my Beruffschulklasse - the self is subjected to a degree at ANAD, the other will soon be holding clinic - oh Jesus. And constantly want to talk about it with me - I'm so not in the mood because on it ey. Leave me alone with the crap - I've now talked about it n years, I'm tired. Yes I am still eating disorder aber ich hab mein Bedürfnis mich darüber auszutauschen, alles tot zu analysieren echt bei ANAD gelassen. Ich weiß was bei mir scheiße läuft, bin nicht gewillt was dran zu ändern weil ich eigentlich ganz gut so leben kann wies im Moment is und die Hoffnung auf n gesundes Essverhalten hab ich eigentlich eh schon begraben also warum noch groß drüber reden? Nee nee - aber die lernens auch noch.

Apropos ANAD - die Leut da sin ja auch die Härte - hab ich ja vor meinem Einzug 200 Euro Kaution hinterlegen müssen und gesagt wurde, 3 Monate nach Auszug bekommt mans wieder - ja nix is. Da muss man denen echt hinterher telefonieren und drohen bevor die mal in die Gänge kommen - echt ich glaub ich spinn! Echt ne bodenlose Nerve!

am Sunday and then I grade something of so much cheer Grey's Anatomy trip - this is so my escapism at the time, if I'm gugg I with body and soul into it and what I geflennt so lately have - madness, yes, I vienna waterfall feel myself xD The series is just too great.
mediator because I'm also really into Addison. At first I did it purely out of loyalty to Meredith hated - I will my the and already she steals her her McDreamy, her McDog - their McLife xD But I habs endured non too long - Addison is just too funny xD At scheduled, emotional - quite Simply awesome. The result was the Hammer in LA has spoken se as with the elevator or Pete by the horny elevators in Seattle tells xD I'm really laughing tears.

And I'd be freaked out - would halt ne? I flipped when I finally got what gepeilt Private Practice is - the spin-off of GA with Addison in the lead role! Yeah baby, goil rumjump xD * * So what of genius, though I present Addison in GA already missing - but Lexi I have to say is already well ne sweetness that is totally beautiful eyes.

So that's sometimes as short demolished, sorry Tanya, I'll take it again, unfortunately, present to read what it was with you lately, but I get as soon as possible. I need to learn so I present only noml bisl my grand 1.0 average in school and then think xD gehisch noml bisl GA Guggenheim before I then throw it in my hot longed bed - God all day today I was SO tired, was the real nasty.

Well, jut maketh Leutz xD * * knutsch

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flood of images Part 3 - Bath Bristol

Bristol is about 20km (or alternatively - 12 minutes by train) from Bath, and is known for its music and film industry, as the destination of the last flight of Concorde, and as the birthplace of "Race Riots" (uprising) of the 80 years ...

- Sorry, at this point I was invited to the movies (movie: Beowulf is an old English legend ... The film had many funny elements, but was otherwise not remarkable ...) and then went live journal not first, so the rest of Bristol until now.

And again, I was with Diana 2x in Bristol, the first time for shopping. And that had consequences: After I had paid on Monday afternoon at H & M with my debit card, was from 19:30 clock in London with a forged Debit card a lot of money withdrawn from my account. Fortunately, my bank noticed that and locked my card, which meant that on Thursday with another 2 pounds and 63 pence in his pocket in front of cash machines and was desperate ...
went after looking into my account then on Friday's first to the police, but has not done much, because my card was not actually stolen. Fortunately, I still have it a second card and I am therefore again liquid ...
The whole affair, however, was quite a shock - in future I will only pay cash and would also recommend you, if you're even in Britain, allegedly because something like this happens frequently!

good. Right now a more positive topic: On the second visit to Bristol-Diana and I were in the small but excellent zoo in Bristol. They did not have as many animals such as the Dresden Zoo, but this rare Gorillas with baby, Asian lion (of which there's probably only 300) and okapi. The enclosures were also very spacious and modern.
So here are some pictures:












turtles and iguanas live together.

No, this is not what it seems. That share only the place in the warm light ... in the foreground is the way a micro, as in most terrariums - so you can listen to the animals when coughing ... So far I did not, however, the lizards make sounds ... 've Honestly not heard ...








My favorite:) A mini-crocodile, it always looked as if it were grinning.























The sea lion had a large pool in which they could also be observed when swimming.

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Beautiful Chicken ...















In these images, each a little mouse, "hidden" ... PS: is the first microwave oven.
































Diana is pleased to announce that now there is to eat something soon;)

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flood of pictures Part 2 - Candy

Since Diana is an excellent baker and I'm currently pretty under-cake removal We have taken a back-test. There should be a cake-Tsarevich (Main content: chocolate and cream:) will be. The decoration, we must modify due to lack of equipment and also we have found no ground nuts - are the obvious, like cottage cheese, a rarity in Britain. Therefore, the cake was a bit "lumpy" ... I thought it was still fine and the Vatche have him also liked (or at least eaten ...).


In Great Britain there is also a great invention - Hot chocolate with cream and marshmallows. Which should necessarily be introduced also with us. However, I will then usually bad;)
down again a picture of Fudge-Chocolate-Chip-apple.


Diana, incidentally, was also enthusiastic about the cats and has made many beautiful photos ...